I was engaged in a very long conversation with my Mom last night when she said, “I need Thee every hour – see, that’s why the song use every ‘hour’ and not every year, or every week, or every day. We need God’s presence in our life every hour, even in every minute so we’re not controlled by our worries and we’re able to find the peace – only in His presence alone.”

I thought a lot about Mommy’s words this morning. Like she said on the phone, the every-hour-thing-with-God does sound so cliché. You sing it at church on Sundays, you read it in the Bible. You hear it in the sermons. You just know it. But maybe it’s not so cliché enough for me; because it seems to do it is not an easy task at all.
These weeks have been quite hard for me. We’re currently looking for a unit to live in together – me and my brother, and his wife. But two weeks has passed, and we seem to have no conclusion. And I can’t stop being worry.

So this morning, I woke up late and rushed myself to the shower when I remembered the talk and start to hum…

Ya Tuhan tiap jam ku memerlukanMu
Engkaulah yang memb’ri
Sejahtera penuh

Setiap jam ya Tuhan
Dikau kuperlukan
Ku datang Jurus’lamat
Berkatilah

Ya Tuhan tiap jam
Ajarkan maksudMu
Biar janjiMu genap
Di dalam hidupku

I need Thee every hour; you’re the only One who can give me a peaceful heart…

Err, maybe after all it’s not the correct translation:

I need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord;
No tender voice like Thine can peace afford.

I need Thee, O I need Thee;
Every hour I need Thee;
O bless me now, my Savior,
I come to Thee.

So there I was thinking, what it would be to be with God every hour – and need Him in every hour. Will I enjoy it? Is it true that being with Him every hour will bring peace within? Will erase all the worries away? Will stop me from thinking – and thinking – and thinking on how to solve my problems?

Then I thought about myself and my love-life…

You know, I’m much a lovey-dovey girl. I love – I just love, being around the person I love. And sometimes it goes so bad – maybe he actually felt irritated with my presence, but I just love being with him. (Disclaimer: there isn’t actually any-him at the present time, so whoever you are, please don’t feel annoyed yet.)

Ok, what I’m trying to say is, me being the lovey-dovey person, I just love to spend time with my loved-one. We would just sit together at home, even when it was only the time he did his things in the computer and I read my book next to him, I felt secure, peaceful. We would talk and stop talking, and talk again and laughing. I would look into his eyes (OK, it’s getting too much) and felt utterly blessed to be with him.

And somehow, all my problems – somehow, seemed to be disappeared when I was with him (sigh, I know, sound scary, doesn’t it? Very melancholy and stupid @@).

But then it’s true. And I think all of you must have felt the same way with your loved-ones. Yeah maybe we’re in different level of feeling that way. But isn’t the world seems to stop revolving when you look into their eyes?

And so I was thinking, could I feel that way about God? This God, which in person, I have claimed to love with all my heart? I have told Him and told myself for too many times, that I would love Him more than I love anyone or anything in my life.

And yes, I’ve always been a devoted lover for my loved-one. But have I been one for Him?

Have I ever found the pleasure to spend my time with Him, close to His side? Have I made it a daily delight to do my daily-chores with Him near me as I always found it’s enjoyable to do my things when my loved-one was around?

Sometimes, even to remember my loved-one presence or imagine his face in my mind can make me smile. Do I smile when I picture Your face, o dear God?

When my heart was filled with worry, and I heard my loved-one call my name, my heart would start to pound faster, and the worries just disappeared! Instantly I would feel contented, and secure to be close with him. Do I really feel that way, when I hear Him calling my name?

So I pray to God, that I might have these experiences, to be with Him in every hour and feel satisfied and worries-free, knowing my Eternal Loved-One is around and in charge of every single thing I face even on my toughest days.

I need Thee every hour, stay Thou nearby;
Temptations lose their power when Thou art nigh.

I need Thee every hour, in joy or pain;
Come quickly and abide, or life is in vain.

I need Thee, O I need Thee;
Every hour I need Thee;
O bless me now, my Savior,
I come to Thee.