One form of relationship that often frustrates me is a one-sided friendship. I don’t have many friends, in fact I almost don’t have any friends. I consider a lot of people as my acquaintances instead of my friends because I’m always careful of putting people in my inner circle. MyRead More

Vakantie’ in the Dutch means ‘holiday’ in English. And my children are in ‘krokusvakantie’ right now, that means ‘spring holiday’. They are free from school for one week, and since we can’t go anywhere in this corona lockdown, we just stay at home. Often we go out to the neighboring

Vakantie’ in the Dutch means ‘holiday’ in English. And my children are in ‘krokusvakantie’ right now, that means ‘spring holiday’. They are free from school for one week, and since we can’t go anywhere in this corona lockdown, we just stay at home. Often we go out to the neighboring

I’m not much of a gamer, but I’m bad at managing my time and I lost a lot of time to games. I like simple uncomplicated games, like blocks/jewels games. In my defence, I only use games as a way to kill boredom, nothing serious, I will just play in

Still writing about love, as I’ve written before, many of us fall in love with the idea of love itself, instead of really falling in love in the person. And as a sinful human being, we also have the tendency to fall in love because we need to be loved,

Found the writing I wrote 3 years ago on Facebook! This was written soon after I had a collision with a Dutch celebrity chef. Nothing to be celebrated (even when he’s famous), but really something to copy paste here because I indeed learned a lot from it (and many unfateful

Today is Valentine’s day (as if it matters to me). I’ve been wanting to write something else since I read a very disturbing news this morning, but it would take a long time to write that since it’s a very difficult topic, so I will write about something else instead. 

Two days ago I decided to clean the snow on the sidewalk in front of our house. The snow was so thick it would be enough to make a big snowman this year. I’ve never really tried to make a snowman before. Either the snow in the past years wasRead More

When I entered the dining room, the table was full with dirty dishes, the kitchen counter had no free space, at least 3 or 4 pans waited for me to wash them. I look to the left and no ray of hope shone from the living area. The table was

As someone who dwells often in disappointments (not something to brag about, I know), I tend to look back at a lot of the past events. Unfortunately the memory lane brought me frequently to stressful moments, disappointing people, things I still can’t let go… This has brought me to a

Since I’ve been failing in keeping new year resolutions too many times, I stopped making them at all. Especially when I kept dealing with surgeries every year, it seemed pointless to put a dreamy target when life was more about surviving. But this year it was a little bit different.

It’s been years since it snowed here in The Netherlands. Real snow, I mean. And today the children were very happy because they could finally play with snow. Many moms in the Facebook groups searched frantically for sleighs, boots, ski-suits, because the snow forecast came rather surprisingly. And now we’re

I’m no novice to the subject of pain, being so often hospitalized, having 6 surgeries in the past 8 years (4 in the past 4 years alone, the biggest one gave me 30 cm of scars around my neck and shoulder), 2 attempts of difficult natural births, and uncountable visits

For a big part of my life, like 90 percent ever since I was able to evaluate my values, I’ve (almost) always gone to bed with this haunting feeling of regrets. The Collins Dictionary defines the word regret as this: Regret is a feeling of sadness or disappointment, which is

I’ve never been so angry for so long like this time, when I couldn’t stand the nagging of my neighbour anymore. They’ve been constantly complaining about all kinds of noises from our house, from our children playing, from the piano playing. All kinds of rules that they wished to be

Kinderafdeling, Sint Antonius Ziekenhuis, Nieuwegein Here I am, early in the morning, sitting in an uncomfortable chair in the middle of a big hospital sleeping room for 5 people. The beds are almost full, 4 children were admitted today to have their surgeries. Two were very young, like my daughter’s