So, I guess this is my first posting after I got married back on the early of January this year. It’s not that married life is not so exciting so I stopped writing for awhile. But there were so many changes happen in my life that it’s sometimes hard

There are two beautiful things I received in my engagement day. The first one is a dozen of gorgeous red roses from my sister in law. The second thing is a beautiful diamond ring from my beloved fiancé. Now a week has passed since the big day, and the roses

God, I want to ask You, WHY?But I know it’s an unfaithful questionSo now I come to ask You, WHAT?And please tell me, HOW?So I can understand Your will,And not questioning Your loveAnd in between I know how to please Your heart. Please tell me, GodBecause I’m dreadfully scaredAs I’m

There are things in life fear me. Some of them are silly things like going to the bank (and the must to talk to the teller) or asking for a replacement when I realize I have bought a dress with a wrong size. Other things are important like failing before

I feel somewhat listless these days. Every morning I would be awakened around 5 AM and felt uneasy. I know I had to do something – praying, but every time I couldn’t bring myself to my praying rug and stayed in my bed, wondering why I feel heavy inside. I

I just received a call yesterday from my church choir coordinator (err, what’s your position actually, Angky?) He asked me whether I can join the Monday practice – means joining ROS (Reformed Oratorio Society). I almost forgot to breath and started to giggle (my famous reaction whenever I get nervous).

I took a bus and not MRT to office this morning. I found that though it takes longer time to reach my office, but I’ll always get a seat in the bus, so I could use my commuting time by having some rest while I listen to the sermons from

There were times in my life, when I got misunderstood by others; I wished that someone would stand up for me. Saying things to defend me, things that I can’t speak on my own. Maybe I’ve watched too many Disney’s fairy-tales – because the wish never came true. The prince

It takes me a lot of courage to say I’m sorry, but it takes even more courage to openly admit that I’m hurt or disappointed by others (and then forgive them). My standard procedure when I’m hurt (seriously) is smiling, say nothing, going away, and crying alone. I rarely reply

This morning as I gazed outside my window, I saw a middle-aged lady walking out the HDB complex. It was not too early, about 7.30 AM, but surely she has woken up this morning much earlier than me, because she was already on her way to office when I was

It’s just crossed my mind – about loving someone, and what is the best means to measure it. It’s natural to expect someone you like (or you love) to feel the same way with you. And when you don’t get the expected response, it’s just human to feel sad and

I cried a bit last night while I was talking to my Mom. I told her I really feel uncertain, and though I’ve tried my best to be strong and always look happy, but deep inside I really feel scared. I told her, that in too many times I think

(a belated posting from April 22nd, 2010) Ada kegiatan apa aja nih? 😉 bike to work? ;p hehehe berkebun? dll?anyway … HAPPY EARTH DAY !!! I just received that email in my inbox today. Can’t stop myself from producing a smile (though a bit sad one) in reading it. It

As I received a not so good SMS last night, I thought, “Gosh, what now?” I didn’t reply to the message immediately, because I really don’t know what to say. I wanted to curse, I wanted to give terrible advice, I even expected one to happen since I really couldn’t