I feel somewhat listless these days. Every morning I would be awakened around 5 AM and felt uneasy. I know I had to do something – praying, but every time I couldn’t bring myself to my praying rug and stayed in my bed, wondering why I feel heavy inside. I
Oh mine, I feel heavy. I am heavy. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I’ve been gaining weight since the end of 2008 – OK, this is the time to stop blaming my AD trip to cause this weight problem. But somehow it’s true, it started there and I couldn’t seem to stop
I just received a call yesterday from my church choir coordinator (err, what’s your position actually, Angky?) He asked me whether I can join the Monday practice – means joining ROS (Reformed Oratorio Society). I almost forgot to breath and started to giggle (my famous reaction whenever I get nervous).
I took a bus and not MRT to office this morning. I found that though it takes longer time to reach my office, but I’ll always get a seat in the bus, so I could use my commuting time by having some rest while I listen to the sermons from
There were times in my life, when I got misunderstood by others; I wished that someone would stand up for me. Saying things to defend me, things that I can’t speak on my own. Maybe I’ve watched too many Disney’s fairy-tales – because the wish never came true. The prince
It takes me a lot of courage to say I’m sorry, but it takes even more courage to openly admit that I’m hurt or disappointed by others (and then forgive them). My standard procedure when I’m hurt (seriously) is smiling, say nothing, going away, and crying alone. I rarely reply
This morning as I gazed outside my window, I saw a middle-aged lady walking out the HDB complex. It was not too early, about 7.30 AM, but surely she has woken up this morning much earlier than me, because she was already on her way to office when I was
(One week late edition) I saw one last night, a very bright star, close to the moon. (My Google research told me that it’s probably another planet like Venus or Jupiter – but for me, it’s a star). Since I was a little girl, the sky always fascinated me. I
It’s just crossed my mind – about loving someone, and what is the best means to measure it. It’s natural to expect someone you like (or you love) to feel the same way with you. And when you don’t get the expected response, it’s just human to feel sad and
I cried a bit last night while I was talking to my Mom. I told her I really feel uncertain, and though I’ve tried my best to be strong and always look happy, but deep inside I really feel scared. I told her, that in too many times I think
(a belated posting from April 22nd, 2010) Ada kegiatan apa aja nih? 😉 bike to work? ;p hehehe berkebun? dll?anyway … HAPPY EARTH DAY !!! I just received that email in my inbox today. Can’t stop myself from producing a smile (though a bit sad one) in reading it. It
As I received a not so good SMS last night, I thought, “Gosh, what now?” I didn’t reply to the message immediately, because I really don’t know what to say. I wanted to curse, I wanted to give terrible advice, I even expected one to happen since I really couldn’t
After taking time in my recovery for more than one month, I still don’t feel fit enough to do anything, other than going to office and do small amount of household chores. It feels like my life has been trimmed down to less than half of its size. Regrettably this
I came across this article today Yosef: I am a heroin user, not a criminal , and thinking how far the truth is being twisted these days. When doing something wrong (against the law) doesn’t make you a criminal (as long as you don’t harm anyone but yourself), is doing
Catching up with my daily devotional on 9th January 2010: Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.1 Thessalonians 5:23, New King James Version It was a dreadful moment,
The title in English: it’s not that I don’t believe, but I can’t do anything about it. I’m 31 years old and single. It’s a good combination to anticipate a lot of curiosity from family and friends why I’m still single at this time. Some of them asked out of
I hate being a spoilsport – though it seems I made myself a good number of times. And the worst reason to be a spoilsport is to be sick – just in time when I must do something. Since I was young, I have skipped hundreds numbers of classes, meetings,
I’m currently reading the expository of Psalm 1 by Charles Spurgeon. I quote here one sentence he used in explaining Psalm 1 as below:“Well may the saints long for heaven, for no evil men shall dwell there, ‘nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.’” He said “may the saints
Ok, I’m peeking into someone’s writing. It’s my first home alone experience in my new house – my brother and sister in law suddenly decided to get an escapade to Bintan for 3 days, and I can tell you that being alone in the house is not really my favorite
Yes, I dreamt about you. And it’s been happening very often until now. I mean, look at us, we’ve been talking only for the past few weeks and I’ve been dreaming about you – five, six times? And dear friend, how most of them are not good ones 🙁 When